Lee

Oh my god!!!! I didn't have a chance to blog yesterday...but yesterday was good.  I ran and all that...did great. Except at night time when I freakin had to talk about my break up to my cousin and my best friend.  I can't take it anymore!! I freakin smoked a cig and I felt so guilty for doing it that I smoked another one! Why!? Why!? Do you have this hold on me SP!!!!??!!!! You know who those initials are! I digress.  Well after feeling shitty about my choices...today I did quite well. No cigs!!! I ran and ate somewhat healthy.  Today was so cold and I forgot to charge my iPod, which was awful! I had to run without it. No Glee. So I had to deal with it and freeze my numb numbs off.  I agree with Olivia about the whole lifestyle changing.  Working out and running is not going to be my problems...or even eating healthy that is easy for me.  Smoking will be my enemy.  I can't begin to explain how that first inhalation of smoke feels, especially after a long stressful day.  However, it has become a crutch.  I don't need a crutch...I have never needed a crutch.  I saw this commercial today.  It was the smoking commercial that says I was gonna quit before I got married...before I graduated...before I had children...etc. etc.  Well damn it I will quit before I go back to school! DOWN WITH THE NICOTINE! Oh and btw...never run where there are a lot of dogs.  Little bastard came and almost took my leg off.  Ugh! I hate that dog. It happens every time I run.  Today I got smart...right as he ran toward me I ran toward him and scared him.  AHAHAHAHA!!!!!! Yes, he will never run at me again.  I'm done for the night! Peace readers...if we have any.